So much for a bright future...

I feel like I have nothing to look forward to in life anymore. No, I don't mean that in a 'I have nothing to live for' or suicidal way. I'm just simply stating that it feels like I've already passed the climax of my life. When you're in middle school all you think about is how you can't wait to get to high school. When you're in high school you look forward to graduating and going to college. Well I'm here now and I find myself with nothing to get excited about anymore. In 2 years I get to graduate and go to work for the rest of my life, sounds intriguing huh? Well if that doesn't excite you then maybe the fact that you start losing touch with people you care about and close friends start to move away and begin a new life. Still not ecstatic yet? Don't forget you get to pay bills and spend all of your free time working an every day job that you get zero pleasure from! Exactly, growing up sucks. I don't know if I feel this way because I'm being immature and don't want to accept responsibility or because I have a deep faith embedded in my mind that there is more to life than simply exchanging your time and labor for money. This life is so short and I refuse to accept the fact that slaving at a 9-5 job is the only way to support yourself. I mean wouldn't you rather spend your life traveling and doing things you enjoy instead? Basically I'm saying that the structure of our life sucks. I just feel so hopeless and I'm scared that I'll never feel that genuine, stress-free happiness that we feel as little kids again. But anyways I guess I'll stop complaining because I have to go study for a test. (Ironic huh?)